I am really tired but I cannot sleep. Last week I found a lump in my breast, and although it meets most of the stereotypical features of a cyst and not a tumor I am still nervous. Not so much for myself, but my young baby daughter. I am also pissed of if this turns into something serious, that it had to happen after I had her, she does not deserve that.


I have an appointment tomorrow morning and the best I am looking at is a long needle being stuck into my breast to drain the fluid out, the worst is that there is no fluid to drain, which means it is a solid mass. Then it is a biopsy or removal for testing and...I don't even want to think about it.

The fact is that actually it is not even a new lump, I had it looked at a few years ago and my doctor then determined it was not really in the breast tissue and was probably a cyst or clogged duct of some kind. She said as long as it does not grow bigger not to worry about it. Well it has tripled in size in the last week and is so painful sometimes I have to keep myself from shoving something sharp into it to relieve the pressure.

I don't know why I am posting this here, I guess I am just scared and wanting to vent.

Thanks for anyone who listened...





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